UNEXPECTED LOSS

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Rhumb Line ~ April 23, 2015 – December 17, 2019

I looked into Rhumbs eyes, there was so much certainty in my voice as I asked for her to be euthanized. She needed me in that moment, and she did not need me to be selfish in my wants and desires and needs.

Rhumb was only four and half years old, entering the prime of her life. She was strong, vibrant, and in optimal health.

She was our force of nature, the ruler of our household, which suited us all just fine. Her energy didn’t just fill a room, it filled every place we looked, as far as the eye could see.

She was my purpose every single day since the day I met her at 4 weeks of age. We were each others other. Her and I were a seamless and tangible Team, and that was not lost on anyone that knew us.

Over the past month our family has been working through profound loss but also celebrating a life so vibrantly lived.

For the first few weeks there was leveling grief in our home that was compounded by some pretty defining accusations and damning assumptions at the time of her death.

We are now past the point of condolences and hugs, and have surrounded ourselves with love.

I have learned a great deal through tireless reading and researching, and our family decided last night that sharing with you all what we have learned is our gift to you, to honor a short life, but an awesome one by any measure.

With eyes wide open, and with love, Nancy

FULL SERIES

24 comments

  1. Oh my heart goes out to you and your family. You might remember me, I took lessons from you with my new husky pup (Maya) shortly after my 2 huskies were shot by a woman claiming they were wolves. They were only 3 yrs old. It created such a flurry of emotions in my home, I could hardly talk about it. I had felt such a connection with those dogs. It is now 7 years since that time, and I remember and appreciated your kind words to me at that time. My heart goes out to you, Helene Orenstein

  2. I know you said you are past the condolences – so I will only do this. I will send you love. I will send you all the goodness that your Rhumb would want for you in this moment. And I will remind you, as you always have done, run your own race. As a friend has taught me, some times the right things to do are the hardest things to do. You are so blessed, lucky, you are better for the time that you DID have together. Nothing more, just Love.

  3. I cannot even fathom the events that led to this~ only faintly feel the profound loss that your heart must bear. There is a complexity of energy in your words. Deep and strong love that was reciprocal; supreme joy and pride; connectedness and oneness of two souls; and of a heaviness of heart and mental emotions that seem crushing at times.
    I wish and send you love. That deep and unique love that only another dog person who has felt this deepness can send.

  4. I have no words. I can only tell you how stunned I am; how sad, and how I wish this were not so. I have learned so much from you. And the love you have for your dogs jumps off the screen and into my heart when I read your blogs about them. with love, cj

  5. I am so so sorry, Nancy. I have enjoyed watching Rhumb grow up into such a beauty! Thank you for sharing her life with us. Prayers for you and your family. Love, Jerilyn

  6. I am so floored and saddened by your news. There are no words, you do so much for the rest of us with your words, it is hard to find ones for you.

  7. Nancy,

    So sorry to hear about your loss of Rhumb. We had to let go of our Freezy last Feb. It is just so hard when their time comes even though I know I will probably be saying goodby at some point. But we have always let our dogs tell us when it is time, and would never selfishly put them through treatments just to keep them longer when those treatments only make them miserable.

    Blessings,

    Carlene and Pat

  8. Such a sweet face. I’m glad you had the time you did together and had the fantastic connection that you had. I am saddened to hear this news. Love to you and your family.

  9. Nancy and family,
    I am so sorry to learn of your recent loss of Rhumb! 💔 May each day continue to bring you the healing comfort you all need. My heartfelt thoughts are with you!

  10. When I lost JT my world stopped heart hurt so bad just the thought of my beautiful girl brings me to tears and in 90 days it will be a year of my home empty and me left with no purpose so I know what you must feel. Thinking of you.

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